11/23/25: Creativity

Sometimes I feel like my site is boring. I feel I'm not creative or skilled enough to create something that other people would ever want to look at let alone enjoy it once they did. It's been months since I got the main page updated and I haven't finished any other pages. I think maybe I'm too lazy. I definitely feel like it. I'm 6 months out from graduating high school and there's no job, no college, no nothing. I can't even drive.
School was hard for me. Not the work or the tests, I just had a hard time dealing with all of the people. I was lucky enough to be able to take virtual school after 9th grade. 9th grade is a whole other can of worms I don't want to get into. I just, was a smart kid, according to the adults around. I feel the whole world was available to me and I wasted it.
Then I guess I have to think, you know, it's not all over yet. As cool as it would be if there was just a quit button on life, there isn't. You have have to find your way out of whatever corner you dug yourself into; if I keep working slowly, I think one day I will catch up. I think one day I will drive, and I will get a job, and I will have a good website design idea, and I will have the skills to code it.